Divine Chats

I forgot I had this thing for a second but now focus on remembering...

Two days ago was the tragedy at Virginia Tech where one man who couldn't claim his own life took them from many. It has been the talk of the town since [as it should be], and has stayed on my mind without the constant "this just in" on the television news.

I've also run into the fact that many people around me are struggling with something big, something painful. I still have no idea what to do for any of these people, but I know they deserve better so I cry randomly throughout the day. Why do I have such an amazing life, full of blessings, and others have never been treated humanely?

Even in all of this, I found myself with no outlet to express the build up of thoughts pressuring the sides of my brain. It happened last Friday as well. I was at a conference on the virtue of justice when I had all this potential inside of me with no direction. I left the conference in hysteria hoping for another. Earl's office was only a building and three floors away. Luckily he was in his office and able to spare a moment. I had decided I would put my musings to pen and paper [or keys and screen]. Then it hit me that here I am, manic over the direction of my life which had to be solved that second lest I lose all self control, and this man is compassionately and calmly focusing on what he can do to aid me even though he just completed his ninth treatment of chemotherapy the day earlier.

Tonight I had no clue where to turn as I carried the pain and injustice of the world on my shoulders for once. Then a woman, known well and adored by many of my friends, gave a talk on everything I needed to hear. Afterwards she even hugged me, which meant more than she could have said. Somehow in all the crazy moments of my life, when I'm going entirely mad, I run into the Divine, and this healing process begins instantly.

So what's this all about? It's the point that there are days when I go berserk [over something wonderful or less than] and am greeted by a simple reminder that I'm not alone. From here I must greet others with that continuously until I lose sight again and need another divine council.